http://cocaineaddiction.me/cocaine-addiction-stories/my-cocaine-addiction-story/ Tell your own story about cocaine addiction! Tue, 03 Jan 2012 22:38:17 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.0.1 http://cocaineaddiction.me/cocaine-addiction-stories/my-cocaine-addiction-story/comment-page-1/#comment-10120 JCHILL Sun, 17 Jul 2011 01:52:58 +0000 http://cocaineaddiction.me/?p=142#comment-10120 I feel that I have ran my life in reverse order. Most people that i know used drugs in high school. I was the anti-drug person, didn't so much as smoke pot or anything. That was 20 years ago! fast forward to today. I'm now 36 years old, and I now have to admit that I have used coke. Not something I'm proud of but its reality. Went thru a bitter divorce 4 years ago and its been a roller coaster the whole time. Drinking beer has been my thing since I was about 15. It has always been socially acceptable in my family and my community when I was raised. Now back to the coke use. Lost a good job (my own fault), running with tons of new people and trying new things....that is where the reverse order of life that I talked about comes in. Cocaine became a crutch for me, when things were rough or things went bad I used. At those moments there seemed to be no problems. sometimes for days.. I feel that I have ran my life in reverse order. Most people that i know used drugs in high school. I was the anti-drug person, didn’t so much as smoke pot or anything. That was 20 years ago! fast forward to today. I’m now 36 years old, and I now have to admit that I have used coke. Not something I’m proud of but its reality. Went thru a bitter divorce 4 years ago and its been a roller coaster the whole time. Drinking beer has been my thing since I was about 15. It has always been socially acceptable in my family and my community when I was raised. Now back to the coke use. Lost a good job (my own fault), running with tons of new people and trying new things….that is where the reverse order of life that I talked about comes in. Cocaine became a crutch for me, when things were rough or things went bad I used. At those moments there seemed to be no problems. sometimes for days..

]]> http://cocaineaddiction.me/cocaine-addiction-stories/my-cocaine-addiction-story/comment-page-1/#comment-8768 amandamurray Sun, 12 Jun 2011 23:50:52 +0000 http://cocaineaddiction.me/?p=142#comment-8768 Reid, thank you. I really appreciate your story. Any chance we can talk? Via e-mail? I'm a little lost / scared. Your story inspired me. I'd appreciate it. Thank you. Amanda. Reid, thank you. I really appreciate your story. Any chance we can talk? Via e-mail? I’m a little lost / scared. Your story inspired me. I’d appreciate it. Thank you. Amanda.

]]> http://cocaineaddiction.me/cocaine-addiction-stories/my-cocaine-addiction-story/comment-page-1/#comment-7578 Reid Thu, 12 May 2011 01:45:44 +0000 http://cocaineaddiction.me/?p=142#comment-7578 Acually i like Cocaine Acually i like Cocaine

]]> http://cocaineaddiction.me/cocaine-addiction-stories/my-cocaine-addiction-story/comment-page-1/#comment-7116 Jennifer Fri, 29 Apr 2011 14:54:43 +0000 http://cocaineaddiction.me/?p=142#comment-7116 I recently lost a long heartbreaking battle with my fiance. We meet 25 years ago in high school. After seeing his behavor was wild then, I moved to the west cost to come back and have him end up on my door step 21 years later. He was a mess and I had no idea. Things were good until the cocaine snuck into my home that I share with my only daughter. Our lives were destroyed by his addiction and drug dealer coming to my home and threatening me. The endless nights of waiting for him to run out of crack and or cocaine so I could finally sleep knowing he was still breathing. I asked for help from his mother who decided it was my fault since she is an enabling blaming hoish bitch. She overnighted him $5,000. I moved but found that our bills hadnt been paid in months. I could get as far as across the street. For the 6 weeks he was alone is our old home was terrible. He not only smoked/injected the $5,000 while I was at his home every hour during the night and during my lunches to make sure he hadnt overdosed. I have actually seen him inject 2 needles full of coke and hit the crack pipe in one sitting. His dear mother convinced him my idea of rehab was not a good idea but hounded him to become an over the road truck driver. His pain and misery ended after a year on the road and being supplied with meth from his brothers and cousins. He hung himself 4 days before what was suppose to be the day we were married after I thought he was clean for a year. I found out after he sent a disturbing text late on December 13 2011. I called and redialed from 11pm until dec 14 at 2:14pm when the coroner answered telling me what was the most painful word I ever heard. They just got in his truck to hear the phone ringing continually. He was still hanging as I was told he had taken his life. His services where on what was suppose to be a celebration of his recovery and a life we dreamed of. His agony ended the day my nightmare begins. Not only did we lose a friend and family member but he left me enough information to know to get tested. I now am starting a year of treatment for Hep C. I am a single mother who worked so hard to recover from my own addictions. I am 7 years clean and now know, addiction hurts many people, lives are ruined by others pain but loving an addict is pure hell. I have lived both sides of the fence and I now know watching someone you love with your whole heart kill themselves slowing right in your home over a 4 year period is a nightmare I can seem to wake up from. So before you use know the pain your coving up is nothing compared to the pain your family will feel once they have to identify the body of a soul that couldnt seem to see how much he was loved. His pain is now my life. He got the easy way out. I have to live always with the endless unanswewred question....."what the hell just happend and was I to hard, not hard enough, why? How did I end up paying the price for his choices. Please next time you are presented with an opportunity to use, please please picture yourself in the morge while your mother, father, child, wife, husband, friends hearts break and will never be able to mend. Relationships in my life have changed. I will always be known to have Hep C....not all the wonderful and challenging battles I have already won in my life....noone will remember those. I will forever miss my friend, but am trying to find forgiveness in order to mover forward with the long year of being sick and a life that someone took from me. I recently lost a long heartbreaking battle with my fiance. We meet 25 years ago in high school. After seeing his behavor was wild then, I moved to the west cost to come back and have him end up on my door step 21 years later. He was a mess and I had no idea. Things were good until the cocaine snuck into my home that I share with my only daughter. Our lives were destroyed by his addiction and drug dealer coming to my home and threatening me. The endless nights of waiting for him to run out of crack and or cocaine so I could finally sleep knowing he was still breathing. I asked for help from his mother who decided it was my fault since she is an enabling blaming hoish bitch. She overnighted him $5,000. I moved but found that our bills hadnt been paid in months. I could get as far as across the street. For the 6 weeks he was alone is our old home was terrible. He not only smoked/injected the $5,000 while I was at his home every hour during the night and during my lunches to make sure he hadnt overdosed. I have actually seen him inject 2 needles full of coke and hit the crack pipe in one sitting. His dear mother convinced him my idea of rehab was not a good idea but hounded him to become an over the road truck driver. His pain and misery ended after a year on the road and being supplied with meth from his brothers and cousins. He hung himself 4 days before what was suppose to be the day we were married after I thought he was clean for a year. I found out after he sent a disturbing text late on December 13 2011. I called and redialed from 11pm until dec 14 at 2:14pm when the coroner answered telling me what was the most painful word I ever heard. They just got in his truck to hear the phone ringing continually. He was still hanging as I was told he had taken his life. His services where on what was suppose to be a celebration of his recovery and a life we dreamed of. His agony ended the day my nightmare begins. Not only did we lose a friend and family member but he left me enough information to know to get tested. I now am starting a year of treatment for Hep C. I am a single mother who worked so hard to recover from my own addictions. I am 7 years clean and now know, addiction hurts many people, lives are ruined by others pain but loving an addict is pure hell. I have lived both sides of the fence and I now know watching someone you love with your whole heart kill themselves slowing right in your home over a 4 year period is a nightmare I can seem to wake up from. So before you use know the pain your coving up is nothing compared to the pain your family will feel once they have to identify the body of a soul that couldnt seem to see how much he was loved. His pain is now my life. He got the easy way out. I have to live always with the endless unanswewred question…..”what the hell just happend and was I to hard, not hard enough, why? How did I end up paying the price for his choices. Please next time you are presented with an opportunity to use, please please picture yourself in the morge while your mother, father, child, wife, husband, friends hearts break and will never be able to mend. Relationships in my life have changed. I will always be known to have Hep C….not all the wonderful and challenging battles I have already won in my life….noone will remember those. I will forever miss my friend, but am trying to find forgiveness in order to mover forward with the long year of being sick and a life that someone took from me.

]]> http://cocaineaddiction.me/cocaine-addiction-stories/my-cocaine-addiction-story/comment-page-1/#comment-1948 Veronica Mon, 22 Nov 2010 03:45:03 +0000 http://cocaineaddiction.me/?p=142#comment-1948 Is rehab the only answer? I'm going to go to meeting, simply wanting to stop obviously doesn't work.. I feel this sucking the life outta me Is rehab the only answer? I’m going to go to meeting, simply wanting to stop obviously doesn’t work.. I feel this sucking the life outta me

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